PAINFUL PAST

Yesterday, I was surprised that my CF teacher asked me to come in front of the altar in our school chapel to a faith sharing… I was really shocked and nervous! I don’t know what to say and where to start. I found out later on that my classmates forgot to inform me that I will be the one to share in front of the class. I went forward I flashed a wide smile and said, “I’m not ready and I don’t know how to begin”, but of course the main purpose why I was there standing in front of them is to share something… then I started it by sharing my own experienced in life… It goes like this “I grew up in a broken home” then I struggled to hold back my tears. Yah every time I recall about my past, I can’t help but cry…

My first eight years were the painful years of my early life. I was only one year old when my parents separated. As I grew up I began to search for love, guidance and comfort. My mother was a caring, affectionate woman with a heart full of love but because of financial difficulties and being a single parent she was forced to leaved us and go abroad to work.

I remember something that happened frequently in my early years. Many times I found my mom in a corner all by herself, in tears. “Mama, why are you crying” I would ask. She would pretend that she was fine, but I knew differently. She was crying for my father. Whenever I asked when my father was coming home, my mom got a far away look in her eye and always gave the same answer, “Someday he will return”.

Our family never heard anything from my father. Whenever his name was mentioned by our other family members, they will say how bad he was for abandoning his wife and children. My mother was different in her attitude about my father. She kept waiting for him to come home someday. But someday never came…

Looking back after all these years I remember how I sat in one corner and thinking it was all a bad dream, a nightmare from which I would soon wake up and find that my family is whole again…

Sharing my painful experienced in life in front of my classmates was the moment that pain and hurt filled my heart again.

When I was eight years old I became a born again Christian. That moment on I started to seek for an answer by reading the bible. I can still vividly remember how I talked to God and cried in soft sobs, “God if you are really true can you give me a father”? Even after all these years I cannot describe the pain I felt or find the words to express. All I knew that time was I wanted a father, nothing more. A father who will support and guide me in my early stage of life…

I thought God didn’t answer my petition. It took many years before I understand why and realized that God answered my prayer because He gave himself for me to be my father. Even without the presence of my real father, God let me feel that He is guiding and protecting me every steps of my way. Until now I can still feel His love, a love that even my father cannot give. He filled all the emptiness in my heart that I had learned to forgave my father and let go of my past. . .

TO LOVE AND TO BE LOVED

When you hear the word “love” what comes into your mind? It may remind you of cupid’s arrow stringing two hearts together. Or the couples walking along the beach holding hands. Or the three bright red roses in a vase. A locket we wear close to our heart. A touch that warms and promises…

Our experience of love is both exalting and frustrating. Thrilling and saddening. Love is a relationship that comes as a holy gift from God to the world, but it can color our world with sunshine and rainbow as well as darkness and despair. It is meant to be beautiful, fulfilling, strengthening us and enriching our personality. Yes love lights our life and gives meaning to our existence. And I can say that it is both privilege and responsibility.

Yet, to some of us, who have been hurt and perhaps hurt another, the word “love” cuts like a knife wounding all over again. It breaks our souls and brings tears to our eyes. It may refresh our memory of a break-up letter. Of a love wrapped gift returned. Of a bitter exchange of words, followed by a painful goodbye… I know all about it because I experienced it…

Many of us maybe wondering if love promises so much, why do we often experience pain and disappointment? Why the enduring aches so hard to go away even with the passage of time?

The problem is selfishness. Instead of its life-giving and life-sharing qualities, we focus on the aspects of love which are self-serving.

So you will ask me now, “What then is true love”?

The essence of true love is more than feelings, more than physical and sexual attraction, more than all things that we may associate with LOVE…

For every tears and hurts because of love that broke our world… it made us strong and gives us hope that the true love that we’ve been waiting for will finally come in the right time, for the right reason and with the right person…


One of the deepest needs of every person is the need to be loved. To feel lonely and unloved can be devastating.

STRESS AT SCHOOL

Student like me experience stress in every area of our lives but how do we confront and manage school stress? How would you react if you had project that you couldn’t quit and each day and everyday you were found to face the stress of having to work at tasks that are too hard for you, so you often receive reprimands for not doing the task right, or for not finishing on time. Sometimes you even get bored and frustrated to work at tasks too easy for you. There are also times you find yourself placed in a group of classmates who are unprepared, incompetent or otherwise passive and parasite. Worst is your being deprived of your “break” period because you did not do your assignments and having a bunch of home works and not knowing what to do or how to do it..

If all these stresses occurred in school, of course for us student life would be extremely difficult. You would need all the encouragement you could get and ask someone’s help or if sometimes when you find the situation is hopeless you would find someway to quit.

Not one of these stresses in the school is unavoidable. Whether the task is easy or hard is still up to us. The difficulty lies because we ignore our responsibility as a student. Nevertheless, the stress for us will be easier to manage if we will learn to have self-discipline. We must learn to look at situations in different ways and have a more positive outlook on what we do. The most helpful method of dealing with stress is learning how to manage the stress that comes along with any new challenge, good or bad.

Believe that you will succeed if you keep working toward your goals.

ONLINE NEWSPAPER VS PRINT NEWSPAPER

The main purpose of online newspaper is to provide news and information that are more timely, more thorough than print newspaper. Not only do they allow for instant updating of news stories, they provide an avenue for instantaneous community conversation about important matters of the day, entertainment, classified ads, and even obituaries.


Online Newspaper is more personal that is why it is more of interactive communication or two way communication. The main goal of online newspaper is to expect feedback from the audience. It is also a multi directional communication or public communication because online newspaper is open to the public that they can access anytime. Timing of communication is flexible and responsive to demands of participants

Online newspaper and print newspaper have different audience. Its goal is different from the other online newspaper aims to exchange information while ordinary newspaper they are there to persuade

Legal boundaries, such as laws regarding libel, privacy and copyright, also apply to online publications. Online newspapers must abide by the same legalities as newspaper publications.

The typical composition of online newspaper are search engines, news stories, links within news stories and hyperlinks-ads.

Check out my Slide Show of Mike Arroyo!

The truth behind it...

There are a lot of pressures under President Gloria Macapagal Arroyo specially the allegations that she rigged last year's election, that her corruption-tainted husband First Gentleman Atty. Jose Miguel "Mike" Arroyo leaved the country to protect her credibility to remove himself from any situation which will cast doubts on Arroyo’s presidency even his contributions to health care and sports development, have been the object of ridicule.

Mike, a lawyer from a prominent family, has been portrayed as an influence peddler, working behind the scenes under the president's protection. While no firm evidence has emerged, he has been accused – along with Arroyo's son and brother-in-law, both members of the House of Representatives – of taking kickbacks from operators of jueteng, a popular illegal numbers game. The allegations are the subject of a Senate inquiry.
Corruption in the country, however, is a systemic virus that has reared its ugly head once again under Macapagal-Arroyo. When she took power, the president promised to eliminate graft and corruption. But soon enough serious doubts were raised whether she can really address the nation's decades-old problem and now.

I know that it has been difficult for Mike Arroyo to see his wife suffer through the negative press that he have received.

I believe that the president political enemies are just trying to distract her from fulfilling her reform agenda as president and now Arroyo win back the public trust.